What do you want to do with your life? (Part 1)
Yes, this is an actual photo of me at age two. I was in the 5th percentile for growth and height, so being statuesque was never in my future. I like to call this picture my ecstatic Shirley Temple shot since my hair was/has always been unbelievably curly.
I had a great childhood. I don’t know if I’m in the norm in that department, but mine was pretty boring for the most part. I did get made fun of for being a dork and weird a lot though… I was a really eccentric kid and was waaayyy too outgoing and energetic. In my second grade report card I received straight A’s but talked too much. Each report was riddled with negative comments about my uncanny ability to not shut up. Also, I was bullied quite a bit, but in my experience that was common. Yeah, it hurt my feelings but kids are cruel and bullying (At least for me) helped me root myself even more into who I am. After high school I gave up on trying to fit in and pretend that I liked things that I didn’t. It’s really frustrating to pretend to be an entirely different person all the time.
When I got to college it was definitely better than high school. I was so excited for college because people didn’t care what you wore or who you were. It was easy to find students with the same interests as you. Also, dating was a heck of a lot easier because there was a much bigger dating pool to choose from.
After I finished college I freaked out. What am I doing? I’ve been in the same job since high school, I still live with my parents and I haven’t published anything!?! I had a small break down for many reasons. I had just graduated, my love life was in shambles and I was getting fed up working part time. I also lived with my parents all of my life and I needed a break from them. Basically, I needed independence but I had too much freedom as well. Nothing seemed to be going for me at the time and I was morbidly depressed.
I let myself sink into a depression for almost a year. It’s a lot to soak in when you graduate. A LOT. You’re a grown up now and when you finish college you get ask the most annoying question in the world, “What do you want to do with your life now?” I think that question should be outlawed. Hardly any individual in their twenties will know what they want to do with their life, if any. It’s a huge question and any twenty something can tell you that college doesn’t guarantee a job anymore. I used to think that if I finished school I would find a job and that would be that. Not so much…
I’ll be writing a part two-er tomorrow. But I wanted some feedback if I could. What about you guys? Did you feel like your life was slightly over after college?
^ I like this video, while I’m not the biggest fan of Bryarly, she made great points and I related to this a lot.