I think I can, I think I can
I have never been a cocky person…. unless I’m talking about my Super Mario World skills on Super Nintendo. I’m incredibly good at that game.
I like to think that I’m confident individual. I’m confident about my personality, my job and my life. I may have some insecurities but I don’t dump them on others unless I feel like it will benefit the other person. For example, if someone asked me to help their kid with Algebra, I would immediately tell them no. Do you want your kid to fail math? No? Then you really should to talk to someone else. Algebra is a foreign language to me and I couldn’t pass a test even if my life depended on it. I’m not going to lie about my weaknesses but I’m not going to put it out there like a life resume.
We all have that friend, co-worker or acquaintance that will complain about themselves and expects/wants someone to compliment them. I understand that everyone has bad days. Every once in awhile it’s normal, if not healthy, to ask your friends for a boost in your self esteem. However, I find it unattractive or annoying when people you barley know display crippling bouts of low self esteem.
I hope I don’t sound unsympathetic in saying this, but low confidence is such a turn off. I honestly cannot think of something that repels me more than self hate. While I can empathize and wish the best for that person, I usually cannot be involved in that person’s life. I want to be around happy people because I want to be happy. I want to be around high self esteem people because I want to be confident. The way you talk or think about yourself speaks volumes. I’m not saying this because I’m an overconfident individual, I definitely am not. I do however, find that when I “fake” confidence, I appear to be more in control and can fool myself into thinking I can do what I need to get done. I can’t believe I’m phrasing it this way, but be the Little Engine that could! Keep telling yourself that your worth it, that you’re amazing and you’ll start believing in yourself and so will others.
I dislike being around those with low self esteem, because I used to dislike myself. It’s a terrible habit to get into, and a very hard quality to be rid of. When I believed I was worthless or “unwantable” I felt that way, it didn’t mean it was true. I still say “sorry” about a million times in a day when I really shouldn’t be apologizing. I’m not perfect, but I realize my issues and try to learn and grow from them everyday. This post is similar to a rant, but I just wanted to get my point across that being you means never having to say you’re sorry… unless you’re being a jerk. Please, don’t do that.